SwearFuEven when I know, I'm still lost
Jun 21, 2008 13:37 EDT
For the first time in my life I knew and accepted who I was so completely that I could be totally honest with someone. I totally opened my head and heart, but the exact same thing happened. Over and over again I allow myself to care about someone, and everything goes to hell. I wonder if I pick the wrong people, or if I'm so fucked up no one could care about me as I am, or both. I wonder but I don't feel anything about it, I'm not sad or angry or anything, I don't even hate myself. I think I've finally become so jaded that I just don't care anymore. Is this what being normal is supposed to feel like? It's very freeing.
Muse - Hate This and I'll Love You
dead inside